Friday, December 09, 2005 @12/09/2005 12:30:00 AM
Back in Singapore. Why is the feeling different? Why do I feel so lost? How often can a heart be taken apart and mended? Mine was taken apart 3 times and mended twice. But yet, its still taken apart. Its very very tired. Once again, I know what heart ache is, where my heart really really hurts, when I can cry almost anywhere and anytime I want to.
I hate myself for being so foolish and stupid. For falling into this stupid web time and time again, for allowing myself to be hurt once more. I fall and pick myself up, once, twice. Third time, I really don't know how to pick myself up anymore. I want this behind me forever but yet I cannot put this down.
*You looked so good today with that haircut*
Dignity thrown and returned leaving me with no dignity at all. How can I stand up again? With no support at all, from family, from friends.
Alone is what I feel.
Oh and my dad hecks what I do. "Quoting him"
⥠every page of my imagination