I am back to that same choice once again. I made the same choice once, Can I make the same choice once again? Oh wait, that choice has already been made for me.
I guess I dont really have a choice then.
Will be in MIA for a while.
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Pence for a Song
The above is a song that Azhari sent to me today. He composed it in 5 mins! Fantastic..
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Okay, Okay, it *finally* all makes sense now...
I never looked at it this way before:
MENtal illness
MENstrual cramps
MENtal breakdown
MENopause
GUYnocologist
AND
When we have REAL trouble, it's a HISterectomy.
Ever notice how all of women's problems start with
MEN?
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Dating Ads
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These are actual dating ads from across America.
Women Seeking Men
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I like driving around with my two cats, especially on the
freeway. I make them wear little hats so that I can use the
carpool lane. Way too much time on your hands too? Call me.
SWF, 42, 5'10", brown/blue.
SWF, 27, obnoxious, silly, pierced, tattooed, insane, hormonally
unbalanced, Rollerblading, sushi-eating, cartoon-watching
redhead from Hell, seeks Vlad. My neck is all yours.
Don't call me if you are uneducated; unemployed; unhealthy
smoker; felon; under 30 years old, 5'10"; over 40 years old,
6'8", 230 pounds; like cats, channel surfing; make less than
$30,000 annually; or have body parts pierced. Others feel free.
Men Seeking Women
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Fat, flatulent, over-40, cigar-smoking redneck seeks sexy woman
with big hair to cook, clean and pick up unemployment checks.
Desperate lonely loser, SWM, 32, miserable, apathetic, tired of
watching TV and my roommate's hair fall out. Seeks depressed,
unattractive SWF, 25-32, no sense of humor, for long talks about
the macabre.
Thick glasses, HP calculator, SAT 99th percentile, knows pi to
16 digits. Great job, big house, pool. SWM, 33, 6'0", 144 lbs.
Better looking than Bill Gates.
...and we wonder why we've got relationship problems.
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Lately, I would say many things have happened to me. Events that are kinda traumatising, yeap, the every happy Jess or so she portrays herself to be in this blog is going through some shit right now. As always actually. I cant remember the last time anything in Australia went smoothly for me, I wonder why am I even here at times. To go through shit? To have heaps and heaps of burden and pressure on my shoulders? I dont know. Sometimes, I would like to take the positive light of things, instead of being so pessimistic about everything that happens to me. But its just so so hard. I try to be strong but can I? Always, in Australia, I will portray a very strong front in front of my friends except for a select few whom I know wont judge me for who I am underneath this strong front.
Lately, I have been talking to an old friend. Someone whom I have not spoken to in a long time. In fact, someone that I didnt even really meet up during my 3 months Summer break. But those few days that I talk to her, she said something about me that I didnt even realise. She said that I grew to be more mature, more positive. The funny thing is, just before I flew back to Australia this year, someone also said that I was childish and spoilt. Its funny how I portray the same person to my friends but yet they view me in different perspective. Or maybe, when I'm in Singapore, I behave differently with less reponsibilities on me. I guess when you dont have to juggle everything at once, you tend to be freer because you know that for the next 9 months that you're in a different country, you have to be mature, you have to make decisions, decisions that you never have to make when you're back home. This lead me to think, who am I really? The mature decision making girl that I am here or the immature spoil brat that I am in Singapore?
At times, I dont even know who I wanna be. Sometimes being young and innocent seem so appealing because you're free from worries, free from all those responsibilities, free from burden, free from pressure. To be young and innocent is so faultless, its so pure and untainted. But yet, stupid in some ways. Yet, being mature seems to serious. Too serious, but yet that's who you have to be sometimes. Can there be a proper balance between the 2? To be mature yet innocent? I dont think so and I think that's the really sad part of it. Because that would be the most perfect person. But then again, no one's perfect.
Something that I have been thinking about.
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I gotta thank Pau, Josh and Wilson for a wonderful weekend in this faraway place called Ipswich. I wanted to drink my heart out (which I couldnt cos EVERYONE there was under strict instructions from different people to watch me), but yeah, I still had fun. They really took care of me that night. Here are some photos of us, before and after drinking. Keke..
The FOOD
The Finger Food Wilson prepared!
The Fry in the Mouth..
Wilson and me and the erm huge bowl of salad!
The main course!
The soup distributor
4 of us and the FOOD!
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After Dinner
The dish washer, Keke
The Zuo Bos
The Chit-chatting
Xin Fu Nan Ren 1
Xin Fu Nan Ren 2
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After the Monkeying around, the Mahjong and the Drinking!
The Mahjong King?
The Red Face - Wilson
Red Faces once more
Me and Darling Pauline
'Drunk guys'
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After which I had to be dragged from the floor (after falling alseep on there) to the bed. Dont ask me what happen in between, cant really remember. Keke..
But next day all sobered up and hungover, a good meal with Fat Seas! But before that, ICE CREAM (breakfast,um..)
Ice Cream sins early in the morning - best for a hangover!
The next day- all sober up with Fat Seas!!!
Dont know what would I have done without them. Thank you for such a lovely time!
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We convince ourselves that life will be better after we get married, have a baby, then another. Then we are frustrated that the kids aren't old enough and we'll be more content when they are. After that, we're frustrated that we have teenagers to deal with. We will certainly be happy when they are out of that stage. We tell ourselves that our life will be complete when our spouse gets his or her act together, when we get a nicer car, are able to go on a nice vacation,or when we retire. The truth is, there's no better time to be happy than right now. If not now, when? Your life will always be filled with challenges. It's best to admit this to yourself and decide to be happy anyway. Happiness is the way. So, treasure every moment that you have and treasure it more because you shared it with someone special, special enough to spend your time with...and remember that time waits for no one.
So, stop waiting
--until your car or home is paid off
--until you get a new car or home
--until your kids leave the house
--until you go back to school
--until you lose ten pounds
--until you gain ten pounds
--until you finish school
--until you get a divorce
--until you get married
--until you have kids
--until you retire
--until summer
--until spring
--until winter
--until fall
--until you die
There is no better time than right now to be happy.
Happiness is a journey, not a destination.
So -- work like you don't need money,
And Love like you've never been hurt.
"you are never alone or helpless, the Force that guides the stars guides you too"
Shrii Shrii Anandamurti
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The people I miss from work.. Hopefully one day I can go out with you people again after I fly back in November. :)
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530am in the morning!!! I'm still awake at this godforsaken time studying... Soon it can be time to eat for Mac's breakfast. Mwhaha.. I miss Big Breakfast!!!
I detest people who say "I Told You So".
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Today in lecture, its interesting to hear the conversations of other people. It is not evesdropping cos she was talking so loudly, but still it was what I thought was a funny conversation...
"So, how did you go for your 1040 exam?"
"Not too good, I failed by 1 mark."
"Oh, ic, did you know where you went wrong?"
"I thought the exam was really hard! How could he test such hard things? But I also didnt atten 2 lectures and 2 tutorials. So its kinda my fault and kinda not my fault."
"Oh yeah yeah, the exam was really hard and you hardly know what he's talking about in lectures anyway."
"Yeah, my tutor will probably say well too bad, you didnt attend lectures and tutorials."
"Yeah, he probably will. They are such unhelpful people. They should not get 1st year PHD students to be tutors. They dont really care."
"So, how did you go for your exam?"
"Oh, I went well, I got 20 for my exam."
Its interesting to see how hypocritic people can be. To hear such conversations in the lecture hall and these are mature students by the way, its just weird. People often just find reasons to blame everyone else but themselves, and those who actually dont really think so often just go along with the idea even though they managed damn well in the exam. Are we all like that? With that extra artificial flavouring on the outside...
I received my first parcel of the year!
This came by the mail today!
Really made my day better!
And thank you for the last song you send me.
爱的可能
你出现我身边像个奇迹发生
没想到会是你让我如此失魂
我心中的感觉是这样陌生
快乐的牵挂在相聚的每一分
曾以为我见过所有爱的可能
这一刻才明了我有多么天真
想给你全世界一刻我都不愿等
想要你的心却怕不能成真
因为你有你的人生我有我的旅程
在前方还有等着你的人
你会哭会笑会爱会伤神
你会不会敲我的门
虽然你对我的认真我也感动万分
你终究不是属于我的人
但记得在你孤单的时候
我会伸出双手
我会是你朋友到永久
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Today is a new day. Somehow I woke up today feeling slightly lost but yet when Joshua called me this morning to wake me up for uni, I got jolted back to reality. This cruel cruel harsh reality that everyone has to live. Why cant I be spirited back into my fairytale world where there will always be a neverending love story? Sweet hey? Unfortunately, I know that it wont happen. Ever I guess. Oh well, people have to learn. I have to learn, everyone has to learn.
Anyway, today I gotta thank Ree, Nic and Ape for making my day livible (is there such a word?). Today Jo kinda 'pangseh' me cos she went to her friend's place yesterday night at 2am! What a weird timingbut nontheless, I did everything myself today. Its funny how its during this period of time where friends are really important. I guess after this, I lost some friends, but my friendship bond with some grew stronger. But well, loneliness still got hold of me and so I called Ree up to check out what she was doing. Turns out! I could go to her place to disturb her! Love ya babe! Thanks for talking to me today and provided lunch too. Oh and Dinner too. Mwhaha, while Nic and I were practicing our dance moves. Its so fun to be there, takes my mind of things. Cant wait to move in with you girls...
I'll listen to you and this is my song of the week - " Fighter " Christina Aguilera.
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Today I look back in memories. I was looking through friendster, some of my secondary school friends whom I never keep in touch anymore. At this age, most of our friends from school would have been friends for like 2-3 years at least. Saw some of my track friends from NY friendster. Its amazing how their friendship maintained since Sec 1 cos they are AEP students. Sec 1, that's 13, that's nearly 8 years ago. 8 years of friendship. Wow, I'm duely impressed. I think the longest friend I have that I still keep in contact with is Grace Yip and Simin. I have been friends and actually kept in contact with them till now. 8 years. It just struck me how much I never kept in contact with my secondary friends. Its weird how I lost my contacts with them while I still keep in contact with my JC friends. Dont even talk about primary school friends. As of now, I only keep in contact with 1 friend. All cos of friendster... That program is amazing, explains the name actually.
Dont know what I'm really going on about. Just really tired these few days really. Just having memories. Just remembering.
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What Tree did you fall from?
WHAT TREE DID YOU FALL FROM?
Find your birthday and then find your tree. This is really cool and somewhat accurate, also in line with Celtic astrology.
Jan 02 to Jan 11 - Fir Tree
Jan 12 to Jan 24 - Elm Tree
Jan 25 to Feb 03 - Cypress Tree
Feb 04 to Feb 08 - Poplar Tree
Feb 09 to Feb 18 - Cedar Tree
Feb 19 to Feb 28 - Pine Tree
Mar 01 to Mar 10 - Weeping Willow Tree
Mar 11 to Mar 20 - Lime Tree
Mar 21 (only) - Oak Tree
Mar 22 to Mar 31 - Hazelnut Tree
Apr 01 to Apr 10 - Rowan Tree
Apr 11 to Apr 20 - Maple Tree
Apr 21 to Apr 30 - Walnut Tree
May 01 to May 14 - Poplar Tree
May 15 to May 24 - Chestnut Tree
May 25 to Jun 03 - Ash Tree
Jun 04 to Jun 13 - Hornbeam Tree
Jun 14 to Jun 23 - Fig Tree
Jun 24 (only) - Birch Tree
Jun 25 to Jul 04 - Apple Tree
Jul 05 to Jul 14 - Fir Tree
Jul 15 to Jul 25 - Elm Tree
Jul 26 to Aug 04 - Cypress Tree
Aug 05 to Aug 13 - Poplar Tree
Aug 14 to Aug 23 - Cedar Tree
Aug 24 to Sep 02 - Pine Tree
Sep 03 to Sep 12 - Weeping Willow Tree
Sep 13 to Sep 22 - Lime Tree
Sep 23 (only) - Olive Tree
Sep 24 to Oct 03 - Hazelnut Tree
Oct 04 to Oct 13 - Rowan Tree
Oct 14 to Oct 23 - Maple Tree
Oct 24 to Nov 11 - Walnut Tree
Nov 12 to Nov 21 - Chestnut Tree
Nov 22 to Dec 01 - Ash Tree
Dec 02 to Dec 11 - Hornbeam Tree
Dec 12 to Dec 21 - Fig Tree
Dec 22 (only) - Beech Tree
Dec 23 to Jan 01 - Apple Tree
TREE (in alphabetical order)
Apple Tree (Love)
Quiet and shy at times, lots of charm, appeal, and attraction, pleasant attitude, flirtatious smile, adventurous, sensitive; loyal in love, wants to love and be loved, faithful & tender partner, very generous, many talents, loves children, needs affection.
Ash Tree (Ambition)
Extremely attractive, vivacious, impulsive, demanding, does not care for criticism, ambitious, intelligent, talented, likes to play with fate, can be very egotistic, reliable, restless lover, sometimes money rules over the heart, demands attention, needs love and much emotional
support.
Beech Tree (Creative)
Has good taste, concerned about its looks, materialistic, good organization of life and career, economical, good leader, takes no unnecessary risks, reasonable, splendid lifetime companion, keen on keeping fit (diets, sports, etc.).
Birch Tree (Inspiration)
Vivacious, attractive, elegant, friendly, unpretentious, modest, does not like anything in excess, abhors the vulgar, loves life in nature and in calm, not very passionate, full of imagination, little ambition, creates a calm and content atmosphere.
Cedar Tree (Confidence)
Of rare strength, knows how to adapt, likes unexpected presents, of good health, not in the least shy, tends to look down on others, self-confident, a great speaker, determined, often impatient, likes to impress others, has many talents, industrious, healthy optimism, waits for the one true love, able to make quick decisions.
Chestnut Tree (Honesty)
Of unusual stature, impressive, well-developed sense of justice, fun to be around, a planner, born diplomat, can be irritated easily, sensitive of others feelings, hard worker, sometimes acts superior, feels not understood at times, fiercely family oriented, very loyal in love, physically fit. Good friend.
Cypress Tree (Faithfulness)
Strong, muscular, adaptable, takes what life has to give but doesn't necessarily like it, strives to be content, optimistic, wants to be financially independent, wants love and affection, hates loneliness, passionate lover which cannot be satisfied, faithful, quick-tempered, can be unruly and careless, loves to gain knowledge, needs to be needed.
Elm Tree (Noble-mindedness)
Pleasant shape, tasteful clothes, modest demands, tends not to forgive mistakes, cheerful, likes to lead but not to obey, honest and faithful partner, likes making decisions for others, noble-minded, generous, good sense of humor, practical.
Fig Tree (Sensibility)
Very strong minded, a bit self-willed, honest, loyal, independent, hates contradiction or arguments, hard worker when wants to be, loves life and friends, enjoys children & animals, few sexual relationships, great sense of humor, has artistic talent and great intelligence.
Fir tree (Mysterious)
Extraordinary taste, handles stress well, loves anything beautiful, stubborn, tends to care for those close to them, hard to trust others, yet a social butterfly, likes idleness and laziness after long demanding hours at work, rather modest, talented, unselfish, many friends, very
reliable.
Hazelnut Tree (Extraordinary)
Charming, sense of humor, very demanding but can also be very understanding, knows how to make a lasting impression, active fighter for social causes and politics, popular, quite moody, sexually oriented, honest, a perfectionist, has a precise sense of judgment and expects complete fairness.
Hornbeam Tree (Good Taste)
Of cool beauty, cares for its looks and condition, good taste, is not egoistic, makes life as comfortable as possible, leads a reasonable and disciplined life, looks for kindness and acknowledgment in an emotional partner, dreams of unusual lovers, is seldom happy with its feelings, mistrusts most people, is never sure of its decisions, very conscientious.
Lime Tree (Doubt)
Intelligent, hardworking, accepts what life dishes out, but not before trying to change bad circumstances into good ones, hates fighting & stress, enjoys getaway vacations, may appear tough, but actually soft & relenting, always willing to make sacrifices for family & friends, many talents but not always enough time to use them, can become a complainer, great leadership qualities, is jealous at times but, extremely loyal.
Maple Tree (the Mind)
No ordinary person, full of imagination which can lead to trouble, can be ambitious at times, sometimes even proud of accomplishments, hungers for attention, sometimes nervous, has many complexities, selective memory, learns easily, complicated love life, wants to impress.
Oak Tree (Brave)
Robust nature, courageous, strong, unrelenting, independent, sensible, does not like change, keeps its feet on the ground, person of action.
Olive Tree (Wisdom)
Loves sun, warmth and kind feelings, reasonable, balanced, avoids aggression and violence, tolerant, cheerful, calm, well-developed sense of justice, sensitive, empathetic, free of jealousy, loves to read and the company of sophisticated people.
Pine Tree (Peacemaker)
Loves agreeable company, craves peace and harmony, loves to help others, active imagination; likes to write poetry, not fashion conscious, great compassion, friendly to all, falls strongly in love but will leave if betrayed or lied to, emotionally soft, low self esteem, needs affection and reassurance.
Poplar Tree (Uncertainty)
Looks very decorative, talented, not very self-confident, extremely courageous if necessary, needs goodwill and pleasant surroundings, very choosy, often lonely, great animosity, great artistic nature, good organizer, tends to lean toward philosophy, reliable in any situation, takes partnership seriously.
Rowan Tree (Sensitivity)
Full of charm, cheerful, gifted without egoism, likes to draw attention, loves life, motion, unrest, and even complications, is both dependent and independent, good taste, artistic, passionate, emotional, good company, does not forgive.
Walnut Tree (Passion)
Unrelenting, strange and full of contrasts, often egotistic, aggressive, noble, broad horizon, unexpected reactions, spontaneous, unlimited ambition, no flexibility, difficult and uncommon partner, not always liked but often admired, ingenious strategist, very jealous and passionate, no compromise.
Weeping Willow (Melancholy)
Likes to be stress free, loves family life, full of hopes and dreams, attractive, very empathetic, loves anything beautiful, musically inclined, restless, capricious, honest, not easily influenced, not easy to live with when pressured, sometimes demanding, good intuition making a life long friend, suffers in love until they find that one loyal, steadfast partner; loves to make others laugh.
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Jess FUCKED herself up again.
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Lately I have been feeling confused. A whole lot confused at the point where by I dont know what I am doing in my life. Confused, at a loss, in school doing nothing currently. Adding testimonials on friendster. I think I screwed myself up. Sometimes, I think I'll crash. Soon I will. Josh will kill me for writing that I'll crash but I think there's a limit to what anyone can take. Jess is tired. Very tired. I once believe strongly in fate. But I think fate has become twisted and cruel and pulled a trick on me.
Why must it always be this way?
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I'm totally exhausted with my exam and my assignment. Now that they are both over, its abit of a relief. BUT I dont think I'll do well. So, well, I guess I'll just slack around for abit more. Wait that's not even making sense.
Hm, as promised, here's my last Easter break week in pictures..
On Monday..
Harbourtown huge EXPENDITURE spree
On Tuesday...
Klub Kandy
On Wednesday...
Jasmine's 21st birthday celebration
Keke, Sunshine Coast pictures not complete yet! So.. Still a few more pictures to come. Dont get too bored!
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Check this out! Its hilarious. Thanks Gil!
http://www.big-boys.com/articles/numanuma.html
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A picture speaks a thousand words. If only my assignments can be made outta pictures. Then I dont have to worry about typing 1000++ words. Here are the pictures for Sat BBQ at Teddy's place. Yesh, I know. I'm laggine. Posting stuff from last week..
The Mahjong
The BBQ
The Beer
The Crazee People!
I cant be bothered to blog with words. Simply dont have the time. So, photo blogging is the best option!
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Top 13 ways to intimidate your Professors
1. Leave permanent markers by the dry-erase board.
2. Ask whether the first chapter will be tested in the test. If the professor says no, rip the pages out of your textbook.
3.Hold up a piece of paper that says in large letters, "CHECK YOUR FLY" (At least for the male professors)
4. Address the professor as "your excellency".
5. When the professor turns on his laser pointer, scream, " ARGH MY EYES!"
6.Relive your Junior High days by leaving chalk stuffed in the chalkboard erasers.
7.Sit in the frint, sniff suspiciously, and ask the professor if he's been drinking
8.Correct the professor at least ten times on the pronunciation of your name, even it's Smith. Claim that the 'i' is silent.
9. Sit in the front row reading the professor's graduate thesis and snickering.
10.Feign an unintelligible accent and repeatedly ask, " Vet pzze haffen dee henvay?" Become agitated when the professor can't understand you.
11. Wink at the professor every few minutes. (Hey you might even get a date if he/she is cute).
12.Every few minutes, taka a sheet fo foolscap paper, write Attendance Sheet #5 at the top and start passing it around the room.
This is from an email. I wonder what happened to the 13th way? Easter break's over. Sian...
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