Friday, July 08, 2005 @7/08/2005 07:23:00 PM
Sydney Sydney Sydney. A trip that I gave up going back to Singapore for. Now that its up and coming, the thrill has not gone down if not for the fact that I have 1001 things to do. It sucks to live alone because you clean up the house yourself with no help at all, but then again I dont want to live in a dumpy place, so yes I gotta grudgingly do it. I have not packed a single piece of clothing, in fact I have not even taken out my bag that I'm going to bring to Sydney but I guess other things do come first. I swear, I gotta be packed by tonight.
I just realised today that I'm such a big mouth. Things just seem to spill outta my mouth to other people without me realising it. People have been hurt because of this, surprises have been spoilt because of this. Just for a spilt second today, I realise how it is like to lose a really close friend. That feeling is indescrible. Its scary and thus from now on, Jess shall try to be a good girl and shut her big mouth up.
Today I learnt a lesson to appreciate the little things in life. Coming from a fast paced society like Singpaore, there are things to occupy almost every minute of our life. There's almost no time to slow down and enjoy simple things like nature. Today, I had the opportunity to sit at a bus stop for half hour to wait for the bus home. After I think about 10 minutes, I felt restless and the friend who was with me just told me, when you sit here, its not just merely waiting for the bus, its also about appreciating the environment, our surroundings, the people around us. Take a step back from what we always do and appreciate life. Life, appreciate life. How do we appreciate life? Good life bad life, who determines? Often good life is when people are living a comfortable life, bad life is one whereby people struggle to make ends meet. Or so we say that's the defination of life. Today I tried to take a step back and enjoy the surroundings that I'm in. To appreciate the fact that I'm in Sunnybank waiting for the bus, looking at the people surrounding me, wondering what they are thinking. Today, I notice the stillness of the clouds when clouds are actually some things with stones travelling at high velocity. Its not that still after all, but yet on the outside, it looks so still, so peaceful. Is life that way? Masked by its outlooks, always giving people the wrong impression of what it actually is. Its hard to define I suppose.
Life. Live it.
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