Sunday, January 02, 2005 @1/02/2005 12:39:00 AM
Today is the 1st day of New Year. Its interesting how I spent it but I wont go into details. It would be too 'boring' a read. Cept to someone(maybe dear?) Oh wait, you were bored too. Haha..
Anyway year 2005. It seems really daunting. I'm not sure of the future. It just doesnt even seem that I have entered the new year. It would be a whole new different year for me. I have changed campus, going to the main campus to study now. Staying nearer the city now in an apartment with 2 other friends. Missing my roommate Nicole terribly. These things seem easy but I know that what seems easy in this year will not be as easy as it is. Sometimes I wish that life will be easy but I know that if life is easy I'll not learn from life and grow there.
2004 has really been a trying year for me. A year that I thought brought me a new life and hope was qutie traumatising for me. Going overseas is a totally different concept for me then and now. Its a new challenge, a new life that I thought I had away from Singapore. A chance that I thought I can escape from Reuben and begin life for my dream. I went over to Australia totally new and blurred, not expecting the life that I would lead there. I flew there, hating the place instantly because of the weather and being away from family is really a first for me. Thankfully I have Fiona to take me around, to bring me to places to survive in Brisbane. When I decided to face reality and go back to Ipswich, I realised that I was not well-liked by my housemates. At least the 2 Singaporean guys. It was really hard because I was used to being pampered and coming here was really hard. When I was away from home, there are times when I just missed home so much, especially most so during the trying times- my plagarism case, James and when I had my accommodation problem. But yet, these housemates are the ones who are there to look after me when I'm drunk, when I have problems in school, problems that no one else can help but them. They are there for me when I had problems with Reuben. Andrew was there for me when I needed someone to talk to about James. Nicole was there for me the whole year.
James is a problem on his own. But he is someone I'll never regret, an experience I'll never forget. Reuben is someone I want to forget but I cant cause of all the hurt he has inflicted on me. Though the problems are over already, its just somthings that I cant forget. 2004 is the year I truly see the importance of kinship, friendship and believing in oneself.
2004 is also the year I found someone I can rely one. Who loves me for who I am, who is my baby.
2004 is over. 2005 has just begun. I wish that 2005 would be as fufilling as 2004 coz its from 2004 that I have experienced a whole new life and have grown from it.
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